Wow, I'm an absolute fool; a complete fucking idiot. I feel like I just got sucker-punched in the stomach, wholly used and disgusted. The shit just keeps getting deeper and deeper.
As I run it back over and over, spiraling further and further, the questions are endless. Why did you invite me to lunch? Why were you so attentive? Didn't your hand linger on mine? Was your skin on fire? Were you angry when I pulled you away, or was it something else? Did you want me? Do you even care that I'm dying inside? Did you want to ask me to stay?
But all these questions I never asked received a very loud response today for I was just invited to a demo.
God! How unbelievable I am, to think it could be me, just me?! Maybe not crazy, but definitely stupid and incredibly naive. A woman my age should know better - what a laugh! How hilarious this must be to you.
You know I never asked for closure, but I never could read a room, could I?
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