When Respect is Lost

Since the inauguration, every single day has been ridden with fear and unease for me and my loved ones. I'm not ashamed to say I have lost a few friends over the outcome of the election. It seems fitting, to tell you the truth.

How can I be so callous, you ask? How can I throw away years of friendship?

Because I can't look at them the same way. In my heart of hearts, they've changed to me. Is it unlike a cheating spouse? How do you look at your loved one the same way after discovering his/her unfaithfulness? How do you move forward when all respect is gone?

Adulting: The End of the Firsts

I realized a few months ago that I am an adult. I know you're thinking that I am well into my 30's and have been an adult for quite some time, but for whatever reason, it hadn't sank in until I started pulling out gray hairs everyday. I may still call my mom every day, but I'm a child no longer. And with that realization has come a burdensome load.

At my age, I'm realizing the "firsts" are few and far between. When you're growing up you have a "first" almost daily - first birthday, first tooth lost, first day of school, etc. As you get older, the firsts get more spread out - first date, first kiss, first love. But when you get to adulthood, the firsts become almost nonexistent, and isn't that the saddest thing you've ever heard?

I tried to explain this concept to Lizard, but this whole adulting thing doesn't seem to bother him in the least. Am I having an early mid-life crisis, or is it simply that I long for the years of the "firsts"? Maybe that's what a mid-life crisis really is.

Another One Bites the Dust

And just like that another one bites the dust. Farewell, Mr. O'Reilly, you disgusting, despicable piece of trash.