I am not yet the woman I want to be. How do I know that? Well, this adventure is the perfect example. Again, although not a completely new experience, it is one that I think should make the list. Somewhere inside me, though I try to suppress it, I've made the (subconscious) decision that I must be perfectly happy being alone before I can be perfectly happy with someone else. There.It.Is. The big conundrum.
Last night, I had the opportunity to go to a show, and of course, I was given two tickets. Instead of being the person I want to be and simply going by myself, I chickened (bah! bah!) out and asked a whole slew of people to go with me at the last minute. Of course, I had a fabulous time with a very sweet friend, but in the midst of laughing, I realized that, you know what, it would have been fine...fine to have gone alone. So, I made the decision to leave the show alone, head to a bar alone, and eat a nice dinner alone. And driving home, I had a smile on my face. Not bad...I'm getting there, little by little.
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