Update: Liar, Liar, Pants on Fire

I have a confession to make...

A few weeks ago, I shared a post about closure, and in that post, I was relating an experience I'd had about a man who decided to apologize to me a month after the fact. Well, last week after crying my eyeballs out...again...over a man I can not be with, I decided to give him a chance, a chance at least to apologize, rather than being cold in my reception to it. Happily, we struck up a really nice conversation and discussed at least hanging out a bit.

So, last night, I tentatively asked if he had plans for the evening, but he was unable to get together. Quite awhile after our conversation, I received a note from him, telling me that he was seeing someone, but was really attracted to me and had wanted to see us both. In the end, he had realized that wasn't fair to either one of us and didn't know how to bring it up with her! He knew he should have been honest with me last week when I contacted him, but since I'm really great and cool, and he enjoys hanging out with me...on and on and on...until he realized there was nothing he could say to fix things. I simply told him he was an ____ (pg-version!) and I am the stupidest person I know...for giving everyone in my life second, third, and fourth chances to screw me over. I also told him that he's right - I'm amazing. It's easy to SAY it's his loss...

So, for the third time in 2 weeks, a man has lied to me. Wow! Not the kind of records I would like to be setting...

By the way, my mom asked if this is really helping me at all, this blogging and such. I told her that yes, indeed, this blogging and such is exactly what I need...need to tell my story, a story not unlike many others, but unique in the simple fact that it's mine.

"Love comes in its own time and its own way." My mother's hope for me is becoming increasingly difficult to trust, especially when apparently I can't really trust anything that anyone says to me.