Unforgivable

Some things are simply unforgivable. Some actions, some words you just can't take back, and in a single moment, in a flash of an instant, your feelings about a situation or a relationship are changed forever.

I recently got into an argument with a man that I have known for several years, a man that I once considered a soulmate, but I guess even soulmates have expiration dates sometimes. In reflection, I cannot recall an argument so angry and heated where the outrage that is typically coupled with disappointment, shock, or profound sadness was just that - pure and unadulterated fury. The stark realization is that the passion may not have been all his, but the content certainly was. And though the times we've shared over the years will always be cherished memories, my desire to know him going forward was made null and void. I wish him no ill-will, none at all; simply our paths have diverged for good, and quite possibly have been for some time.

With my ex, in his rage, something quite unlike his typical character, he called me out on my one single most fear in life. I will never forget it. And in that moment, my decision was made. Perhaps it was more of a culminating point than an isolated incident, but nonetheless, it cemented the decision, the decision that would change our lives...forever.

Be careful what you say. Be careful what you do. If you do say it, if you do do it, own it. Stand behind it, but move forward to something bigger. Don't let it make you bitter but rather better.