Larkadaisical

One of my very first blogs, and one of the topics that inspired me to start blogging publicly in the first place, focused on evolving friendships. I've also mentioned previously how some people in my life think I've changed a lot as I've gotten older (and wiser in my personal opinion). At my core, I think I'm every bit as complex and complicated as I ever was! But perhaps with age and maturity, I've also decided to explore new ideas and conceptualize new possibilities that challenge even the best of those complexities. I am also much more confident in the expression of said ideas and have few qualms about sharing those beliefs with others.

Recently, some of my friends have struggled internally with decisions that I have made in my life. As difficult as it may be for my heart, and as much as I will always value the times we've shared and relationships we've nurtured, there comes a point where they need to decide if they can still love me and live with me "changed."

My attitude is not as lackadaisical as it may seem; it's just that sometimes you realize that some people are in your life because they always have been, which doesn't dilute their importance, but rather makes you cognizant that they would not necessarily be your friends if you were to meet them on the street today. New larks aren't always met with seals of approval from those who mean the most to you, but that doesn't mean they aren't worthwhile, precious, and fun. Building the bridges is where I'm intrinsically struggling and falling short, but I know that it takes only one block at a time to eventually move a mountain.